Each and everyday of our lives we experience this thing called consciousness.
With thoughts that pop up randomly as we experience daily life.
Sometimes I get tired of being a human being, because of so much responsibility, but it is kind of amazing as well, most of the time. The relationships that we have with our fellow humans is such a worthwhile experience to have within our stay on this earth. At this juncture I think I have about half a century more to live, given that I am already at my early twenties now. There is so much more to discover and experience and I am eternally thankful for being given the privilege to be alive at this time in human history.
I’d really like to help people, you know, become a philanthropist like Bill Gates. I want to serve until this physical body of mine dies. Come to think of it there are a lot of ways to be of use to people. But currently now I work as an apprentice for an Architect. It’s been fun so far for the last couple of months. Solving problems all the time, working all the time. Preparing myself for that January 2017 board exam sometimes. Though I laugh at how most architecture students deem ”passing the board exam” as the paragon of human achievement. Haha. Yes most of them do, not all, but most. They think that the best way for them to be happy is to outperform their fellow architecture students/architects and be labeled as ”elite” without any regard about other people.
I think a lot of times people forget why we do architecture in the first place. Architecture is about helping people live better with better planned cities and buildings. Architecture is but a means to an end, it doesn’t exist for its own sake.
I’m not quite sure if I’m even going to be an Architect for the rest of my life. I do not think it is my calling. But for now, I’m doing this for the sake of the people around me. When I become financially free, I’m going to have seven children provided I’m not impotent and I find myself a wife, play music, sing, run, lift weights, read, travel, do some charitable works and all the fun stuff I can think about. I don’t know exactly how I’m going to reach that, but I am going to.
Many times I think ”well we’re all alive, might as well feel very alive”
And there was a quote I read a few days ago that said, ”I do not think that people are looking for the meaning of life just as much as they are yearning for the experience of being alive.”
It resonated with me so much because it was profoundly true. The people who feel a sense of aliveness in themselves and have a passion for life are so few in number that I rarely meet any of them. All I see everyday are people who do things because of money, who do things because it’s what their circumstances presented them with. People who think with archaic wisdom and are blind to the bigger picture. Maybe I’m wrong, but that is what I see with their actions.
Then I see people who despite all the bullshit that has happened to them, still have so much love to share with all of us. I admire these types of people. These are the people I want to be around, whom everyone should be around, and whom everyone should become. Wouldn’t the world be a better place if we’re all motivated and happy? Wouldn’t it be many ways more healthy to think of what we have rather than what we do not have in this life? You know if we weren’t surrounded with uninspired depressed people our lives would be much richer and fuller.
But who am I to judge people? Maybe they’re happy being depressed and uninspired. Who knows, everyone has a different kind of ”happy” anyway. Kidding (but it is true everyone has a different kind of happy). Of course these people need help. But the way I see it these people will learn it by themselves, it’s the way I learned & applied this kind of wisdom. I can tell it to their faces but they will just think that I am a condescending judgmental asshole. And It’s not like I have already achieved so much in my own life. All I have is my family, my friends and my happy spirit.
I hope I have shared something of use tonight. Good night everyone. God bless us all.